If you only knew - original song

If you only knew,
how i really feel about you
If you only heard,
the things i've been meaning to say
but you don't know
and i wanna keep it that way
cuz i'm afraid,
things will never be the same

Look through my eyes
you'll see a different side of me
not that girl
you think who's really free
because i'm being held back
with all my tears
i've been meaning to say
how i really feel

If you only said
the things i hoped to hear and
If you only held
me in your arms so dear
but its not like that
and i dont think it'll ever be
cuz we're 2 people
from two different sides of the earth

Look through my eyes
you'll see a different side of me
not that girl
you think who's really free
because i'm being held back
with all my tears
i've been meaning to say
how i really feel

I know its unfair
but what can i do about it?
make a spell
to make you love me
so i'm letting you go
i just want to let you know
the way
i really feel.




1)Are you really ready for 111 questions?
YEAH! im bored beyond words

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
maybe,maybe not

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
i forgot?

5) Do you regret it?
don't think so

6) Have you ever been depressed?
yeah, ahhh-bviously

9) What is your relationship status?
single

10) How do you want to die?
painless

11) What did you last eat?
a pear, healthy eh

12) Played any sports?
nope

13) Do you bite your nails ?
yeah, unfortunately i do

14) When was your last physical fight?
can't rmb

15) Do you have an attitude?
sometimes

16) Do you like someone?
hahaha.

17) What is your real name?
Miley Cyrus

19) Are you gonna get high later ?
WANT TO!

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
yeah

21) Do you miss someone?
yeah tooo

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
twirl, with a spoon (:

23) Do you tan a lot?
nope

24) Have any pets?
yeah

25) How exactly are you feeling?
bored

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
yeah

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
never

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
i guess not

29) Are you scared of spiders?
not really

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
definately

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
probably

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
long weekend! airport tmr, then studystudystudy

33) Do you want to have kids?
yup

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
eeeww i dont wanna kiss someone whose name starts with M, esp his fat tummy

35) Do you type fast?
sortof

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
ears, 3

37) Want any more?
yup

38) Can you spell well?
yeahhh

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
yup

40) What are you craving right now?
ben and jerry's ice-cream, im fat

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
yup

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
yeah just last dec

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
nahh, not dreaming of it either

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
yeah,

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
never

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
i dont think so

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
yeah my galfriends!

50) What should you be doing ?
eating

51) What’s irritating you right now?
something personal

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
definately

53) Does somebody love you?
the world :D

54) What is your favorite colour ?
pink

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yeah, who hasnt

57) Do you have trust issues?
sometimes

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
should be

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
i talk to him -.-

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
my laptop

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
yeah

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
nope

67) What was your child hood nickname?
trisha

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
never

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
hahha yeah

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
read my book

73) What is bothering you?
something

74) Have you ever been out of your province?
yeah

76) Are you listening to music right now?
yup, savannah outen

77) Do you like Chinese food?
yeah!

78) Do you know your fathers b- day?
yea.25 oct

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
used to be, now not

80) Is cheating ever okay?
in tests maybe .. hahah no la

81) Are you mean?
nope

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
not really

84) Do you believe in true love?
i'll let you know when i have

88) Do you like the outside?
yeah

89) Are you currently bored?
VERY,TREMENDOUSLY bored

90) Do you wanna get married
yeah!

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
hahah yeah

92) Are you hungry?
yesyesyes

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
never

94) What makes you happy?
food

95) Would you change your name?
maybe

96) Ever been to Alaska?
nah

98) Do you watch the news?
entertainment tonight counts?.

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
Rooster.

100) Do you like Subway?
yeah! esp cookies

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
no

103) Do you talk like your friends?
hahah im unique

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them
yeah many times

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
yes

107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
gilbert

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
nope not really

109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
yinhui!

110) Favorite lyrics right now?
i'll get back to you on that

111) Can you count to one milllion?
no im too dumb

just gotta post this, im very suprised
the other one is gilbert!
lol random ehhh

[ CieL ; SeiKo ]] Imagine, Rhythm of Life 'Just a boy hugging his knees in the midst of it all' says:
hey patricia

[ CieL ; SeiKo ]] Imagine, Rhythm of Life 'Just a boy hugging his knees in the midst of it all' just sent you a nudge.

♥ Patricia Carmel Daniela says:
yeah?
[ CieL ; SeiKo ]] Imagine, Rhythm of Life 'Just a boy hugging his knees in the midst of it all' says:
why today at white sands
when you see us
you just hide away?
♥ Patricia Carmel Daniela says:
hhaha im joking, like pretend not to see only
[ CieL ; SeiKo ]] Imagine, Rhythm of Life 'Just a boy hugging his knees in the midst of it all' says:
-.-
must you be like this? lol...
it is afer all pasir ris
♥ Patricia Carmel Daniela says:
you are so random -.- suddenly say like this
[ CieL ; SeiKo ]] Imagine, Rhythm of Life 'Just a boy hugging his knees in the midst of it all' says:
really
when you called hazim
why not just come up to us instead of wasting call money?
XD

now im back to fat again

i cant blog until i get over the fact that im fat.
i am so pessimistic really
i keep thinking im fat everytime i bite into something
after eating i go weigh myself
i suck in my tummy to think im not gaining weight
if only stuff we eat was fat free
and there were no fats in this world
hate fatsfatsfatsfats!
FAT.
my arms are too big, tummy to flabby
legs to short
face to fat, not to mention i keep pinching my cheeks
EEEWWWWW FAT ):

Finally blogging again
no school for me tomorrow yay!
anyway there is a continuation of boys over flowers
the story that made me cry!
anyway shall update later on


not blogging for a while.

Supposed to do this cuz i love yinhui?! hahah

***********FOOD-OLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?
honey mustard

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
eighteen chefs,sakae sushi and thai express

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?
pad thai noodles from thai express

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
pepperoni with tons of cheese

What do you like to put on your toast?
nutella.

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?
3

What colour of cell phone do you have?
Pink!

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
right-handed.

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
my teeth

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
school bag

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
nope.

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
yeah then i can make a "things to do before i die" list

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
Felicity

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
yup, totally

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Alot. I had a flip flop craze and bought tons, if i'm not wrong i have about 10 pairs

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
never ever

Last person you talked to?
yinhui

Last person you hugged?
yijia

**************FAVORITOLOGY ****************

Season?
summer, when all the clothes are in season

Holiday?
christmas.

Day of the week?
monday?

Month?
July!

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?
all my friends

Mood?
pissed/sleepy/bored

What are you listening to?
breathe slow- alesha dixon

Watching?
tv

Worrying about?
how to get someone to shut up

***************RANDOMOLOGY *****************

First place you went this morning?
bathroom so bathe for school

What's the last movie you saw?
confessions of a shopaholic

Do you smile often?
Always

QUESTIONS
1)Do you always answer your phone?
not all the time

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
amar.

3) If you could change your eye color what would it be?
green

4) What flavour do you add to your drink at Sonic?
uh?

5) Do you own a digital camera?
yup

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?
yeah and they all died

7) Favorite Christmas song?
12 days of christmas

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?
alot of money

9) Can you do push ups?
yeah, we have to unfortunately

10) Can you do a chin up?
nahhh

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
excited!

12) Do you have any saved texts?
yup

13) Ever been in a car wreck?
nope, i witnessed one to

14) Do you have an accent?
i can if i wanted to

15) What is the last song to make you cry?
a little too not over you - david archuleta

16) Plans tonight?
annoy my sister,homework

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
i do today,yesterday and will tomorrow.

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week
pretzels,lunchbox,food

19) Have you ever been given roses?
yeah (:

20) Current worry?
someone

21) Current hate right now?
someone

22) Met someone who changed your life?
yup

23) How did you bring in the New Year?
partied with cj!

24) What song represents you?
breathe slow

25) Name three people who might complete this?
yinhui, she's the only one i think? hhahah

26) What were you doing at 12 AM last night
sleeping

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
going back to sleep.

The party yesterday was awesome
we got many stuff that were princess-sy
anyway they played musical chairs
and this little darling named bryan brought his own chair to sit on!
adorable!
hahah gonna blog when i have more time!






















easter vigil last night was super enjoyable
had alot of fun but went home real late
today theres a party
gonna have funnnn
and forget about everything else
im gonna finish up homework in a while
before getting dressed
its a princess party, and i dont have a tiara
HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE !


saturday!
there was remedial in the morning up til noon
i received lovely notes from syidah and yinhui
haha touching :D
after that went for lunch with yinhui and yijia
we were completely full after CBR
had a walk around and went home
later gonna have eater vigil mass
i rmb last year
we had an overnight vigil
it was awesome! loved my class loads
by the way i havent eaten meat since thursday
gonna dress up for the occasion later (:
anyway amar got me hooked on the song "the show"
he sent it to my phone and i listen to it all the time
my sister so loves the part, i want my money back
haha, gonna kill time now.
ttfn xoxo,

Amazing Truths!

Its good friday
can't eat meat ):
and i've got to do penetential
i also cant go out to celebrate whatsoever
plus theres mass tonight
so yeah school has been alright
a few breakdowns here and there but i'm strong
so rara and me thought of doing a duet and we can be like thus youtube duo!
theyre super awesome :D







Breathe Slow- Alesha Dixon

I'm running out of patience
'Cos I can't believe what the hell I'm hearing
And speaking of hell
It don't compare to this heat
That I am feeling

I love you too much
It shows
All my emotions go
Out of control oh whoa whoa
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see
From the tears that flow oh whoa

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Before i lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Ladies never lose comp- oh oh oh 'sure

Not guuna lie
Or even try
You've got my wheel spinning
And I ain't the one to show
The gun
'Cos that means you will be
Winning oh yeah

I love you too much
It shows
All my emotions go
Out of control oh whoa whoa
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see
From the tears that flow oh whoa

Ooh oh ooh
Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Before I lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Ladies never lose comp- oh oh oh 'sure

Somebody better hold me back
You're lucky I know how to act
(So lucky ain't gunna attack)
I'm being calm and cool
But believe me you
It's taking everything to just
Breathe breathe breathe ...

Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Before I lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I am gunna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
'Cos ladies take it in
And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure
Ladies never lose comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I dont know how to let go....

"I wanna curl up in my bed and cry so badly
why do i love the pain and suffering,
when its finally tell the truth, will you
believe?
Never wish upon a falling star,
it'll just fall and crush you"

had tution in the morning then meet the parents
haha i didnt get a lecture :D
so we went to vivo
there was sooooo much to buy
and there was this fashion show
like chairs were placed with goodie bags on the seats
we managed to go in and watched the show
i like the model's dresses!
so yeah shoped more then went home
bought a certain someone's present :D teehee









had tution in the morning then meet the parents
haha i didnt get a lecture :D
so we went to vivo
there was sooooo much to buy
and there was this fashion show
like chairs were placed with goodie bags on the seats
we managed to go in and watched the show
i like the model's dresses!
so yeah shoped more then went home
bought a certain someone's present :D teehee

Well havent blogged for one week so heres a recap of the week,
TUESDAY
we had to go to old folks home after school
tried playing games with them, it was sortof fun
then played old maid and happy family with
huiqi,chermaine,sakinah and meisi
then parents came to pick me up and we fetched my little sister,
went driving range with my dad
if you people were there you'd laugh at me
i hit the ball and it bounced and rolled
me = not destined to play golf
i thought it was easy, guess i was wrong

WEDNESDAY
typical school day like none other
followed michelle and yinhui to run at stadium
we tried long jump
i looked spastic doing it!
anyway they were training for sports day
met parents in tm to do grocery
jelly and me bought junk haha

THURSDAY
sports day!
i got tricked by amar in the morning
i was walking to the stadium for duty
and he told me he just woke up
then he was like sortof right behind me!
liar ):
so yeah carried stuff here and there
was in the same stall as amar,yuyu,jodie,sharol,nurin
we sold lotsa stuff
yinhui and michelle won medals! so proud of them!
anywaycheerleading
Achievers was adorable! yijia danced (:
so overall winner was ..... STRIVERS :D
yayyyy we wonnnn!

FRIDAY
we had el in the morning and we were talking about metaphors
and amar said "like fingernails on nails"
LOL !
i sat with sakinah and we started pasting stick notes on people
it was retarded!
some didnt notice!
funny like crazy
and then had choir,

pictures coming up later
have to go for meet the parents even though my parents didnt have to see my teacher
they no need gooooooooooooo but they're going and now i have to go
but im very lazy and i just finished tution