my last post before i stop




i'll just never be good enough
i'll never be as pretty as them
i'll never be as skinny as them
i'll never be as popular as them
but i tried
hard enough that i almost blew up
and now im not afraid to bleed
hoping that everything else flows away too
im happy for you
you found them
but no matter what happens
i'll never be one of THEM

hey people of this world
im gonna stop blogging til end of mid years
and my computer broke down
so im depending on my dad's laptop
soooo yeah,
im gonna miss evryone
all the best for eoys!
oh,and im a boring person
so i've heard

oh, well
another holiday ending
im just really sad
no more freedom
hahahaha
anyways im just updating for today
am watching hsm 2 again
anyway that guy jason is really dumb
"actually im not miss evans,im jason"
!


actually,i still miss you
but its really better this way

replied tags :


Jasper; yesyes i wont la,and thanks (:
weizhen; you didn't link me too but i've linked you or i cant see my link only hhas
nicole; hellos pretty (:
sockmin;eh min you naggy leh hahhs lol
kathleen;yes dear that is why you should blog tooo,love you <3333
weiting;hellos thanks for dropping by (:
lia;hi! havent talked for sometime yeah and yupps its fariz looking oh so spastic
sya;im starting to but my com crashed again and im using my dad's laptop
chervonee;lollipop! lolliems<3 tangipop <3 lollipops wheeeeee~
eline; yeah twinnies hhas i'll send you themes too if you want
pan; bigger HELLO! :P:P
hafsah;hi too

-i used many smilied in this post la and relinked ppl already

i went out with gladys today
went to bugis,
so we met up first then proceeded haha
so we were in the train and i asked gladys abt this girl
we somehow both know her
shes like really arrogant,show off and what not
we laughed alot la
so we got there and browsed shops
we were having fun playing with the stuff at actioncity
how childish but fun!
so we went bugis street
most of the shops were closed
-_____________________-
wth we were like diao
so we went around somemore
i bought pan her late late present
so we went back to bugis street
saw this black pants
i liked it,it was $29
so was thinking about it
actually i tried it on and it was ok
i told the woman that i was coming back later
i wanted ask my mum first just in case
she gave gladys and me the dirty look
then she said "i dont mind,you dont like the design"
i was like wtf and then she said "first customer its auspicious that
if dont wanna buy dont try"
then i kept saying i ask my mum first
then she like dao us la
then "ask ur mum first before coming next time"
and like hello i wouldn't even see
what for call my mum
so in front of her face i called my mum and bought the thing
they think we have no money
-_________- i was soooo pissed
so we ate t\at bugis cafe
gladys had fish and chips and i had seafood spaghetti
it was yummy
so we went tm take neos
we had really pretty ones
i loved going out
love gladys loads
<333333333333

to him:
when you told me that you werent in the mood
i thought you didnt wanna be disturbed
how was i to know what you wanted me to say
afterall you should have known that i was real stupid
i said i'd give up,and i was actually ok with it
but after seeing what you said,i feel even worse
im just not making you angry cuz i cant bear not talking to you
you said i didn't know how you felt
but i bet im feeling even worse
i really dont wanna say it but this sucks.
this is worse than slitting my wrists and letting it bleed
i'd rather commit suicide now
in the past my friends would say that i was treated badly
but i said its ok its not his fault,i wasnt treated badly
they'd say i was really stupid but i just frgt abt it anyway
well im sorry too,
i needed to say it out
well if you think it over,it'll be harder being me

im back from camp (:
im so so sad cuz its my last camp together with my members
weizhen my precious cotton candy
chervon my lollipop
naqiyah my very very caring member
zenghui my member who never complains
omar my secretly kind member
raziman my navigator

1st day
cabbed to school with sherman
when we got there the gates were locked
wtf? so we waited til it was open
so was reunited with dear members
planned for sec 1 orientation games
my sling was passed around to many many people la
so we learned new games and all
after that we set off for tiong bahru
jonathan left the group
went for some competition
we were happy :D
so the pitstop was this playground
we played on the merry go round
they all went mad actually
so headed back for school
we all took 65
the journey was sooooooo long
when we got back they all bathed and had dinner
after that was one of the pls favourites
MASS DANCE (:
was supposed to dance with chervon
but we danced with guys (gladys and me)
i was partnered with amar and he was terrified
he wont even blink
then i switched partner wth sherman
so i danced with jasper
at the part where we're supposed to spin
he said that he scared my shoulder dislocated
but danced anyway
after that had confidence walk
was outside the av theatre
got to know some alumni like sheryl and zhanhong
then this scout was irritating
he took my job away
-___________-
so slept at 4am

2 day
went to pulau ubin
walked really long
made names for weizhen and chervon
cotton candy and lolipop
on the boat was like really high
made fun of deon
said that he had breasts
haha sorry girlfriend
anway while we were walking yujie said that i looked like garfield
then i chased him
ppl were like "ooooooo"
haha funny
so we saw a praire was too pretty
blue water leh!
took a pic of me and weizhen jumping
enjoyed the experience really
had breath taking scenes
went back to school early
spls had performance
touching
so i slept kinda early

3 day
had area cleaning
then nyaa and pls were dismissed
we got our ties!
anyway im gonna miss alot of precious ppl
ILOVEPLS&SPLS