hey people!
i'm in an okay mood today
seriously my mood swings are not regular
so here i am to blog!
today went for block rosary,
i haven't gone in ages so while praying
i was super attentive
after that i went home while my parents went to the mall
and my sister to catechism
i'll be taking proper guitar lessons soon!
i'm currently searching for one
so far no luck
the stuff i learned ages ago
are now gone too
so yeah that should keep me pretty occcupied
at least now its all balanced
i have cca,tution and a hobby

I HATE THAT BIG FAT LIAR!
i wish he knew who he was
he's a contact in my phone,
its so hard to talk to him
he ain't cool, or what
i just feel that hes soooo stupid!
he should read this blog
!
go and die you stupid idiot

Your PMS Disaster Level: EXTREME!

You're PMS is horrific and totally freaky. You should be locked away once a month... with a ton of chocolate cake!

so when i'm having PMS
you know what to do,
the last time this happened
I was really fierce
even at some people i cant bear to be angry with





Here are pictures from ytd,
we went out to eat at "charlies corner"
its this place at changi village.
Before that we went to the boardwalk
its nice, i like those places
for some reason i'm very attached to the beach
no matter which beach i go to,
i find the scenery breath taking
so we had dinner and the food was yummy,
we then went to eastpoint starbucks to chat
crystal,jeleen and i were laughing the whole night

sunday:
woke up for tution
the place was filled so jac and i sat in front
it was really cold
today was a really bad day,
i forgot to bring my cardigan,journal,bible and consent form
and plus my outfit totally ruined it all
my stupid,stupid ankle
ohwell a few more days left.

its always the wrong person
when i thought he was the one i was wrong
it just adds on to the wound thats already there
must i be the one who changes?
or am i fated to have nobody to love

have been lazy to post recently
anyway my foot is bandaged
its so embarrassing
i fell down the stairs,
ohwell i'm so bored although i have homework
i've been saying repeated words over and over again
like "cute" and "mean"
whats wrong with me?
whatever!


should i keep in the dark?
or risk getting hurt and lead on again

to dearest bestie!
cheer up woman,
you have me to talk to
remember that this is just
a testing point in life
you'll definately get through it
you're strong okay (:

i am soooo lazy to post
anyway shall edit this later

im really down now
its not pms or whatever
i think i have bi-polar
cuz im like happy then sad
im lost,
i think i'm a screw up
i dont have common sense?
i hate myself for all that
i have more imperfections then perfections
no one is perfect and i know that
but im wayyy far from perfect
suddenly everyone hates me
i dont even know what i did
maybe cuz i said something?
maybe cuz i had hatred, wanted revnge
i ended up ruining it all
damn i feel like crying
but then i'd be a crybaby
if i cut myself then im weak
i ain't pretty
i ain't smart
i ain't talented
so what do i have?
nothing.
all i have to do now is die
i'd rather die a slow and painful death
than live

so the cny holidays have passed
i had stuff on but shall not go into detail for that

today was back to school
first period physics
blahblah, not so interesting
then history,
we got back out test marks
daryl and i got the same
so i told him "eh you copy me right?"
but he denies :P
anyway moving on was chinese
chenying is horrible
we didnt get out exam marks in the end
we did zuo wen,aiyoooo
i anyhow do?
who cares,she doesn't so why should i?
recess then a maths
i thought we got back our a maths
when it was actually e maths
i have a few more days to live before i get my scolding
after that nair,
switched place with jasper
and pakteng doesn't wanna sit with me
so he decides to irritate me with some shit
its very disturbing la
chowpakteng is superr irritating!
anyways moving on,
i passed chemistry!
hallelujah
i fell asleep during that test
hahahs
so yeah after school was choir then home
i did the indices notes on the com
and it takes sooo freaking long to do
i did my honework!
but i forgot nair's

yayyyy! yesterday was fun!
we woke up pretty early for the picnic
around 7 i think and we reached there around 9
thanks to my really slow sister
anyway only crystal and jonel's families were there
we waited a while before kat/jan/alexander came
first it was pretty boring,
just lying on the hammock and eating stuff
then we started to play soccer,
okay i admit im weird playing soccer
but hey i managed to hit the ball anyway
so after that was the so called baseball/soccer game
my team lost -______-
then the parents got bored and we played taboo
my sis and i beat them haha!
but we were still bored so i decided to go fly a kite
mine went up really high til the wind
went down and it got stuck in the tree
so we had nothing else to do and we begged our parents to let us
go to escape theme park
after being persistent for about an hour, they let us go!
so jeleen,kat,cj,jonel,alexander,jan,aunty moren and me went
our first ride was the flipper,
gosh it used to be so fun but its extremely boring now
after that we went on the flying thingy
that was relaxing and yet it made me wanna puke
haunted house was after that
i finally went in without closing my eyes and
it was actuallt not scary
hehe i've matured
and so, we decided to ride the viking ship next
you should never ever sit beside kat on thrilling rides
her scream is sooooooo shrill!
so we sat at the end
and it was fun,jonel kept bugging me about
giving some tour of the place on the pirate ship
then cj started "the inverter is over there! the flipper is over there!"
"this is my beautiful pirate ship, check out my matching pipes!"
wth, it has gotten to everyone
so i decided to ride inverter for the very first time!
its like a 360 degree turn and you'd be suspended upside down
so i rode it and it was really fun!
it wasn't scary at all and i managed to keep my eyes open the whole time
we rode it another time and proceeded to play games
we only had time for 1 so we all did the horse game
at first the person was like saying 3&4 were winning and finally
number 7 won!
thats me (:
i won this blue teddy bear
i never let go of it
alyssa tries to steal it from time to time
but no way is she getting it from me
so we end of with dinner and we gooo home ):
it was fun!



thats the inverter,its like the one i rode in escape theme park
just diff colours

ohwell,
happychinesenewyear :D
now be nice and give me money!
I wanna get my guitar hero 3!
I want it very badly,
even more badly than ____________ (fillintheblank)
anyways i wanna know what the songs are
i asked many people but they dont know
when i get it,i'll be playing non-stop
jasper wants it too!
but too bad i ain't rich enough to buy for him
i promised pakteng that he could come to my house
and play wii & guitar hero
today newyear celebration
had chinese singing competition
sockmin&me will join if theres an english one
oh to all 3E3!
let's all watch some movie together!
(:
bondbondbondbond
randomness is cool
chervon and i were talking to this monkey last ytd
promoting our school canteen food.
Anyway let's talk about e3 (:
I like my class,although i miss my 2e4 besties
we're pretty bonded in a sense
and they're sooo funny
like ytd during chinese period
we were at the com lab and it was complete randomness
in jasper and my cbox.
people involved :shermaine,daryl,shinju,jasper and me
it was superrr funny
then nicholas,although hes not from our class hes still damn funny
we all have names
and each day is international something day.
oh and we wrote stuff to mr poon
mine was in pink but mr poon didn't know i liked pink alot,
then ben was like "i know who wrote that"
and he kept looking at me,
hello stupid i knew i wrote that so no need tell me
oh and i finally went back to mavis
as usual i didn't listen at all
and the class is real different now
quiet, cynthia,huilin ain't there anymore
):
ohwell people i gotta go

I want the guitar hero 3 badly ):
im gonna get it for the wii
since my dad doesn't wanna buy 360 anymore
hes like our partner in crime when buying these stuffs
cuz my mum doesnt understand all the gaming thingys
plus, when my sis and i get tired of the consoles
we leave it to our dad to make use of it
anyway i want the guitar hero 3
i saw it in the shop and i was reaching for it
I NEED IT!

\i finally told him that im giving up
of course i lied
im still gonna continue
he likes that girl
and well i just said it
i wanna be strong
i dont wanna depend on him to make me happy

im in the com lab now
anyway i broke friendship with that person
i mean you dont like then dont indirectly say
now its as if nothing happened
you suck D:

pictures (:



I'm freaking sick .... again
anyway ytd i had to go church
i wasn't really keen on going since
i wasn't feeling well and it'll probably be a waste of time
but my group was in charge for the week so i had to go
of course chervon and nikki came too.
i brought cake for the food contribution
so we helped set up tables
then proceeded to attend sunset mass.
there were sooo many people
or rather so many con 3 students
after that went down for dinner
the food was yummy,
then i forgot to bring my medicine -____-
i wanted pizza but it ran out
resulting in me stealing some from joshua
which i didn't do since i'm nice
there was a band playing and we had to sing with them
and then up to the classrooms
we all had candles and that was the funniest part
the candles wont fit into the holder so we shaved the candles
chervon dropped hers twice and she changed it cuz it broke
it was funny cuz it was dark and only one light was lit
we then lit our separated candles
the teacher told us to express ourselves and at the end
we say "i let my light go dim"
my classmates are really creative!
we were basically laughing the whole time
mark: im sorry for not believing you god and i off my light for you
dylan:I'm sorry for laughing in class and i dim my light for you
it was just pure nonsense
after that we all assembled at the parish hall
once again the mayhem began
we started blowing off people's candles
spilled wax on the ground which we nicely
scraped off for them
and finally we could go home
oh and that cornelius couldn't rmb me
he still said: were you the girl i showed the yu gi oh card to?
and my impression was like -___________-
anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYA!
i'm supposed to go ice-skating with them
but im sick and im missing out on fun

stop it already
you've won
and im miserable
im on the verge of breaking down
but you're not worth it
go and find her la
dont waste my time please
im hurt enough



& to pan: Cheer up (:

so much fun stuff happened over the week
but it was all ruined today

we're not talking anymore
cuz you're being petty
you kept talking about her
obviously i was irritated
so i did something unpleasant
i dont understand you
you dont make things clear to me
you're SELFISH
you can't have it all
i mean seriously you trying to make me jealous?
nothing is right
i'm gonna try being happy without you
i know for sure that i'd miss you
but i gotta be strong
you would never be there
my friends were all right
i was stupid
after all the things you put me through
i still loved you
but now,
i dont know what to do anymore
i thought it would all go well
and that we would be together for valentines
but forget it
i'd forever be the girl who gives out chocolates
on valentines cuz i dont have anyone to spend it with