Damn, I'm soooo fat now
Holidays make me fat
Darn,
WILL POWER!
that's what i need
Will Power to exercise and study
I refuse to wear sleeveless clothings
My clothes dont look nice anymore
cuz i wear them
I wished that when I go back to school
I'm actually thin
maybe i'm just short
GAHHH!


I wanna be perfect, but I'm me
I wanna be flawless, but you see
Every little crack, every chip, every dent, every little mistake,yeah
I wanna be perfect, just like you
But there's only so much that a girl can do
When I look in the mirror what I see makes sense to me, yeah
Perfectly

Our Version Of The Mysterious Ticking Noise, Toy Version!













Pictures over the holidays


how would you know if you love somebody?
will it just happen?
what if you waited too long that you just got sick of it?
why am I feeling this way again?
I thought I got over it
and I was happy
but
why did it change?
what if i like you all over again?
will it be the same?



I want to be skinny like those famous people
even if i had to throw up or starve myself
I want to be the smartest
even if i had to work all day and become a nerd
I want to have a talent
even if it means having to learn all over again
I want to be less emotional
even if i have to hold back my tears
I want to be less jealous
even if i have to smile at all the people i hated for having something i didn't
I want to act like my age
even if it means not screaming like a little girl
I want someone perfect
even if i have to wait for the longest
I want revenge on the people who made me or my friends suffer
even if i need to plan that would take a long time to come up with

Then it'll all be PERFECT



what is it with my obsession with rockstars?
whatever, frank iero is hot
kat does have taste
frank looks really cool
and reading him in fanfictions is even better

Merry Christmas!
well i'm in singapore
i do miss everyone else in the philippines!
my presents are still in my grandma's christmas tree
anyway my parents suggested we watch a holiday movie
at cathay in orchard
then on to shopping!
i'm gonna get the jonas brothers album.

been ages since i posted
been sick for the past 2 days
been gaining loads of weight too
been getting cravings and feeling heavy most of the time
and im not pregnant
at i least i dont think so
i havent been throwing up
anyway i guess its just the weather
i'm not enjoying christmas
but we went to church ytd
i saw joem
after like 4 years
he looks different
i dont feel so good right now

listen to my new blog song
!
it mentions my birthday
:P

ohwell,
if you're planning to get me something for christmas
I want my tokiohotel/jonasbrothers albums.
so the end of the year is here
i shall make my top lists.
I'm biased muhahaha

Top 5 bands:
1)Tokio Hotel
2)My Chemical Romance
3)Jonas Brothers
4)Linkin Park
5)Fall Out Boy

Top 5 Artists:
1)Avril Lavigne
2)Rihanna
3)Hannah Montana
4)Ashley Tisdale
5)Paula Deanda

Top 20 songs in random order:
S.O.S-JonasBrothers
Monsoon-TokioHotel
Hot-Avril Lavigne
Umbrella-Rihanna
Whine up-Kat Deluna
The Great Escape-Boys like Girls
About you now-Sugababes
Baby love-Nicole Scherzinger
Beautiful Girls-Sean Kingston
Crank that-Soulja boy
Dead!-My Chemical Romance
Face Down-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Girlfriend-Avril Lavigne
He said She said-Ashley Tisdale
Over you-Daughtry
Shut up and drive-Rihanna
Tattoo-Jordin Sparks
Teenagers-My Chemical Romance
Thnks Fr th mmrs-Fall Out Boy
Your Guardian Angel-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Top 5 Shows:
1)Hannah Montana
2)Life With Derek
3)Unfabulous
4)Sweet Sixteen
5)Miami ink

Top 5 Channels:
1)Disney
2)MTV
3)Nickalodeon
4)Discovery travel and living
5)Discovery Channel

Top 5 books:
1)Confessions of a teen nanny
2)The Clique
3)Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
4)How to be popular
5)Online Fanfictions

MCR CONCERT ROCKED
THE BLACK PARADE @ MAX PAVILLION
so i met up at zb's house
with dzafir and wisnuh
so i didn't know dzafir but i knew wisnuh
i was lucky wisnuh didn't irritate me.
so zb's mum drove us there
and we saw this really looong line
and we just followed!
so we waited,then merepek la the boys
i saw dian!
and the show was delayed.
anyway we got in and all
the show started!
we were all like singing
and the crowd was cool
and gerard kept going
"i wanna see your faces!"
then the lights shone on us and we kept singing!
they didn't play disenchanted though
the first guy i saw was MIKEY!
he was superr hot
his hair was like when they first started and all
hotness anyway
the last song was famous last words
and we jumped like crazy!
after the show,
ziyad's mum sent us home
his mum is really nice!
the concert was just indescribable

sorry havent been active
anyway some random stuff,
today went to church
after that ate lunch
we bought a 9 in 1 styler
when we got home
my mum was messing with my hair
i curled it
so yeah i found out that jonasbrothers like tokio hotel
and i went to a party in Changi Hospital
so yeah randomness

Just came back from malaysia trip
it was really fun!
but i got sick a few times
it was soo irritating la
anyway shall briefly talk about it,
first day:
we all assembled in school
took a bus to some place
and went through customs
our line didn't move
and I couldn't go to the singapore passport line
so weiru,bingcheng,adam sr and fariz
were in the line with me
it took ages and we were the last people to go through immigration
so we crossed to johore and had dinner there
after that we went to a mall
went shopping!
then to the station,but we were bored
so we played "would you rather"
we found out some really funny stuff
so the train came and we got on
i was sleeping on the upper deck
i was super sleepy and just fell asleep
anyway i woke up a few times then finally to our destination
we went to have breakfast and explored the place
after that shopping again!
finally bought stuff
after that we took a bus to malacca central
then we took a bus to our hotel
but when we reached the hotel
stuff happened and we moved hotel
shall not eleborate on that matter
so we took another bus to bring us around town
we took this boat ride
which was really cooooool!
and after that .... shopping!
then went to sleep at the hotel
we woke up and bathed and explored again
bought stuff again along the way
and then we took a bus to tampin
i seriously fell sick at one time
then we went to the station
we had to wait 4 long hours!
to kill time,i played hangman
with fazari,fariz and farhanna
then vernon told us stories
ghost stories too
he's a great storyteller and got us scared
anyway the train came and we all fell asleep
we woke up to get off at woodlands
we passed throught customs and took 168 back home
after that i slept til 4pm
anyway here are the pictures!