|| Friday, May 19, 2006 @ 3:36 AM
i ask myself.....I keep trying so so hard but i keep messing upbut why do i mess up? Do i not want IT to happen?I am being to showy especially when i see himI try ways for him to notice me an it gets worsteverytime i try.........oh i keep saying i hate him but i really don't mean ithe just brings a smile to my face that's whyi don't get him....he's nice at times but not everytimei feel like the world is crumbling down on me......i just have to be stronger spiritually.i really have a gut feeling it ain't gonna come true.sigh.....Give up or pursue my dream?I wanna know .....i just don't know how.....
